365 Day Self Transformation Project (Formerly 90 Day) A Much Needed Break – Week 7

These last month got chaotic. I got a terrible cold for 10 days, received some negative feedback at work, got new meds for my IBS and was trying to move while prepping my house to be sold. I was stressed about staying on task to reach my goals. I also realized that much of my stress was of my own creation. I live off of my righteous anger. I would rather be stressed and riddled with anxiety than be wrong. It was a bit of an awakening for me.

I decided to take a break from the transformation work and just focus on clearing out as much self created stress as possible. I made the tight timeline to put my house on the market the week after we moved out. I can take an additional two weeks so I don’t get overwhelmed. I set incredibly lofty goals for myself, this transformation work included.

I probably should have given myself a year to reach all of the goals I set for myself. Since it’s my transformation project, I am extending to 365 days instead of 90. Goals stay the same, but now have more time to really devote to self reflection and changing my life for the better.

After recognizing that most of my stress was my own creation and devoting the time to change my perspective, I have been feeling so much happier and am able to enjoy my time with friends and family and actually be present.

In other news, although I wasn’t as dedicated to my meal prep, I weighed myself and I am officially down to 181.2! I did still track my food and ate in moderation. Despite all of the mental anguish, I have not binged since December 1!

My husband and I signed up for a 5k which falls under two of my goals – quality time with my husband and wellness. It’s on March 8. We are going to walk it and maybe in June, we will try another one but try jogging that one.

Our new place is wonderful and it was such a great decision to move. We are walking distance to Trader Joes. I am already getting about 3k more steps a day in the new place. The best thing is our new bathtub! Daily baths while reading. It is the perfect way to destress after a long day.

Hope you had a Happy Valentine’s Day! Until next week…

90 Day Self Transformation Project – Week 6 (Days 36-42) – Weekly Check In

I am halfway through this 90 day transformation. Some things have been going really well like putting my wellness and health as a top priority. I probably could have just done 12 week dedicated to wellness. 

I am down to 187.2 which is about 3lbs away from original weight before the big gain last fall. It took a lot of work to reach this number. Interestingly, my inches are still higher. I am wondering if when I am experiencing the plateaus on weight but not inches, my body is readjusting the inches?

I had a painful, I mean super painful IBS flareup starting last Thursday. I had to miss work, slept for over 14 hours. 

On Friday, I scheduled an appointment with my doctor but then had a realization. I have given up dairy, but there are two things that I really struggle with giving up, garlic and gluten.  So now, I have officially given up both of those. It will take probably a month to notice the difference. 

I am going to embrace my new dairy, gluten and garlic free life and try to be as positive as possible. If it helps with my IBS, it will be worth it. I tried out a couple of new recipes. If interested, I made buckwheat banana muffins and they were so good! 

On Saturday, finally feeling better, I tried out a new restaurant, Whole Sol, in Denver and boy, it was expensive and just okay. I paid $25 for a small bowl and a juice, not worth it and definitely won’t be back. 

My kitchen fail this week was crawfish coconut curry and butternut squash rice. The curry was just not great and the rice was mushy it just mixed with curry. I had to redeem myself with something. I made this delicious dinner on Sunday. I was really in the mood for some hashbrowns, so I roasted some shredded carrots and fried an egg with it. Best quick and easy dinner. 

I reset some of my weight loss rewards and got a scale for the kitchen and an air fryer. I usually hate extra equipment in the kitchen but I am loving the air fryer. I cooked chicken in 20 minutes and it was so flavorful and crispy. 

The scale has been really helpful. I have been underestimating my proteins and overestimating my sauces. Dinner was actually filling once I got the scale. 

This week I am grateful the challenges life brings and everything I am learning from them.

90 Day Self Transformation Project – Week 5 (Days 32-35) – Weekly Check In

Instead of trying to post everyday, I am going to do a weekly check i so I can spend more time actually hitting my goals and getting some balance in my life.

I am over a month in and I am definitely changing! I’ve lost over 15lbs and have some balance in my diet. I started out very restrictive. I have a little less than 9lbs left to go before I can start high impact exercises and I am hoping to hit that before spring. However, in my weekly weigh in/measurements, I am still at the same weight for almost 3 weeks now. I think I have hit a plateau so I am going to reassess my workout routine and also purchase a scale for my food and see what happens. The good news is I lost about 5 inches since my last measurements in various places so something is working. 

This week my sleep and water intake have not been great. I get barely 6 hours of good sleep. I know it’s my depression which is very frustrating. I did find these great sleep meditations on youtube which helped the past two nights. I also need to figure out a way to get more water. I noticed this week I drink around 30 oz a day which is just not enough especially at a higher altitude. I got a dehydration headache almost everyday. 

This week, I did not get to a church service either. Sunday morning is always my grocery shopping time and I am struggling with adjusting to my new routine. 

I got so many new things to try at Trader Joe’s. I went to the store so hungry that I wanted everything in the store and went a little overboard.

90 Day Self Transformation Project – Days 24-25 – Week 3 Check In

8e342882-b371-434f-b688-6cde35f8bc81The holidays really through me off schedule and my weekly check in is a little late. My husband and I have been apartment hunting and we had some parties so I have not been able to cook as usual which means it is hard to track my food intake and calories or workout on my usual schedule. 

I tried my best to eat in moderation and the good news, I am finally below the 190s. I am officially down to 189; lost over 16lbs! My doctor said I needed to get to 180 so I can do any type of exercise and relieve pressure on my joints so only 9lbs left to go. I haven’t been below 190 since August so this is a great success. 

While apartment hunting, I tried two new meals – poke bowls and ramen. I have only ever had the cheap ramen. I got the ramen with vegan kale noodles and I am definitely going to try these at home.  

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I know it’s not a huge amount of weight; however, I already feel better carrying around less weight. It is getting easier to walk up steps and walk inclines. 

I know I set sneakers and a manicure as rewards. However, I decided to go with a 2020 planner instead. It’s getting closer to 2020 and I want to start the year off with a plan. 

I am grateful for progress.

90 Day Self Transformation Project – Day 15 – Two Weeks In

4c0172c9-52bd-48c1-837b-3abca4247340Officially two weeks in! This weigh in was a little less dramatic. I lost an additional 3lbs this week, that’s 13lbs total in two weeks. I also lost over 6 inches. I owe myself a new pair of sneakers!

It’s been 15 days since I last binge ate, the longest stretch in almost 5 months.  I am thoroughly enjoying barre classes. They are way more challenging AND FUN than I expected. Making time for working out has been a struggle but I think it’s important to prioritize my health. 

Logging my food is becoming a habit and feels less tedious. I also didn’t have an IBS flare up this week which feels amazing. 

For my other intentions, I made time for my friends and had a date night with my husband. I also got at least 7 hours of sleep every night. This upcoming week, I want to focus on mindfulness especially when eating and decluttering some of my space. 

I am grateful for progress, my body and raspberries.

90 Day Self Transformation Project – Day 14 – Medical Opinion on Transformation

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Esh, so this is going to be a long one. I have tried to write this post so many times in the last week. 

I mentioned that I wanted a medical opinion before deciding on a weight loss plan. Keto is everywhere, but seems so intense and restrictive. I read Dr. Phil’s 20/20 Plan and it seemed practical and can help with my binge eating. I have also been reading Liezl Jayne’s blog and her plan seems really easy to follow long term and is a true lifestyle change. 

I will start with the good news. As of now, I do not have diabetes, pre diabetes, high blood pressure or high cholesterol. I do have some vitamin deficiencies. 

The slightly bad news. Due to my weight, I should not do any high impact exercises like kettlebell workouts or strength training on my own until I lose some weight. Two weeks ago, I hit my heaviest (I’m cringing even writing this) at 205 on my just over 5” frame. This extra weight can really hurt my joints especially for at home exercises. So my first goal is to get to 180 but in total, it was recommended that I lose 45lbs with no set time. My transformation will likely be significantly longer than 90 days. That was so hard to hear and I had to take some time to process. 

I really didn’t want to focus on my actual weight as a goal. My doctor said to see it as just metric to help determine my overall health, and we can adjust the weight goal if I am losing more inches than weight. I was also told that I am currently really strong mentally and I can handle losing a designated weight without developing any disordered eating. I just need to be aware of potentially problematic behaviors and be honest with my doctor and therapist if any habits develop. 

I will be eating no less than 1500 calories and no more than 1800 calories factoring in any exercise. I was also reminded that if I am truly hungry and it is not emotional to eat even if it is over the allotted calories.  It’s been a week and I have not been obsessing over calorie counting. I still eat my food and enjoy it.  

I am going to continue to keep my food plan simple, whole foods, limited processed food and only eliminate the foods that impact my IBS. I will continue to use MyFitnessPal to track but will factor in calories. Per Liezl Jayne’s plan, she recommends assigning some rewards and I have thought long and hard about them. I tried to pick some really fun stuff. They get more extravagant as I get closer to my goal. I just need a new car so I figure this will be a good motivator. I am already down 10lbs so I get my first 3 rewards (YAY!). 

5lbs – Treat meal

8lbs – New skincare stuff

10lbs – New sweaters

12lbs – New sneakers

15lbs – Manicure

18lbs – 2020 Planner

20lbs – Gymshark outfit

22lbs – High tea at the Brown Palace

25lbs – Fitness tracker

27lbs – Knitting class 

30lbs – Day off work and spa treatment

35lbs – New fancy outfit

38lbs – Hire a maid 

40lbs – Long weekend with husband

42lbs – Murder Mystery Dinner Party

45lbs – New Car

My doctor recommended Barre classes (at home or in person) as a great low impact workout. I got a free trial membership for Barre 3 and seriously, it’s a low impact workout, but hard! I completed around 4 30 minute workouts this week, and they are challenging. I don’t think I ever been so sore in so many weird places. 

Today I am grateful for caffeine, sleep and change.