90 Day Transformation – Day 9 & 10 – Catching Up

cf2cb1ba-a0d6-4324-b5df-eab1c98b19e7The week is almost over and oh boy, did it kick my butt! I worked almost 12 hours everyday this week. And I woke up this morning drained. My work life balance is so off this week. Despite how early I woke up (usually around 5am), I didn’t have time to write in addition to working out and packing my food. I need a more structured morning routine. 

I found myself scrolling through my hiking photos just wishing for some peace and needing a break.

This week was a huge test in discipline. Thankfully, I did not eat processed food. Eating clean has been a challenge especially at the office during the holiday season. I am honestly feeling so much better eating this way though. My sugar and junk food withdrawals seem to be gone. And despite being exhausted this week from work, I had energy and felt significantly more focused. 

It’s only been 10 days, but I even had a small fitness victory. My co-workers and I took a walk yesterday and usually when I talk I am gasping for breath trying to keep yesterday. Yesterday, I rambled on for a full 10 minutes without being winded. 

In the last two days, I am eternally grateful for a patient husband, laughter and clean food. 

This weekend I am going to do some serious self care, learn how to make buddha bowls and work on our holiday cards (better late than never)!

90 Day Transformation – Day 8 – One Week In

a11eef86-30f7-483d-91d1-7650e483b50dI am one week into this transformation! I set a lot of intentions and to start, I tried to focus on my health. Some days were definitely easier than others. This morning I weighed myself and was so surprised to see I lost 10lbs! I am sure it is mostly water weight but I am happy for some results, and I also lost a few inches.  I also blogged more than ever this week and finally got on a set schedule. 

I made some huge changes to my diet over the last week. Giving up processed food and candy was so hard. I have dealt with junk food withdrawals. I had some serious cravings especially when stressed at work. I also realized I do most of my emotional eating at work very mindlessly, experience sugar crashes then get more sugar. It is a vicious cycle to break.  

Looking back at the last week, I can honestly say that I enjoyed the changes in my diet. The food was still really delicious and for the most I wasn’t hungry throughout the day. I also never experienced any major sugar crashes. One major change especially since day 5, I don’t snooze as much in the morning. Usually, I snooze for about 30-45 minutes. It drives my husband crazy! Now it’s maybe 15 minutes at most.  

In the next week, while maintaining the new changes to my diet, I want to make sure I am drinking enough water and getting at least 7-8 hours of sleep. Adjusting to the new workout schedule and adding so much food prep took some time from sleep schedule. 

Today I am grateful for change, my life in general and all cats.

90 Day Transformation – Day 7 – Hungry

f68848a6-ce24-4d6e-9321-16c867df799aI struggled today. Work was so hectic. I realized how quickly it was to slip into old habits. I felt like a failure so many times yesterday. 

I woke up at 4am thinking about work and couldn’t fall back asleep. Then I spent all day staring at a computer and jumping from call to call. This felt like Day 1 again. I wanted candy most of the day. I was hungry all day and I wanted to emotionally eat my stress away. It is a tried and true habit for me.

This is how I got here, carrying unnecessary extra weight and being out of shape. I prioritized a stressful job over my health and developed unhealthy coping habits. I didn’t snack on anything unhealthy and I have no idea where that will power came. Other than constantly reminding myself that if I ate junk, I would crash and wouldn’t be able to work as late as I needed to. 

I made a commitment to reprioritizing my life so last night I took a break and went to the gym before working again. I have to develop the discipline to have some work life balance. 

Today I am grateful for this 90 day challenge and the changes it is bringing to my life. 

90 Day Transformation – Day 4 – Happy(ish) Friday

7bd6622c-d4bd-4b46-9a15-c6060970f83aFrom the time I woke up, I was in a terrible mood. I couldn’t pinpoint the reason. We had family in town over Thanksgiving and that usually takes all of my energy.  I was still tired and cranky despite sleeping for 8 hours. I just couldn’t work through my emotions.

I decided I would stop at Whole Foods to distract myself. I finally checked out the collagen powder section. It seems like everyone talks about how good it is for your hair and skin. I went with the matcha powder one. And it was yummy! I know I am just jumping on the oat milk bandwagon, but it is so good! I can’t wait to make some more this weekend. 

Still in a not so great mood, I ran into a coworker that I hadn’t seen it in a month and we decided to go to lunch. Getting some laughs with a friend was so helpful. This was my first time eating out since I started this transformation (only 4 days, I know) and it was hard. Especially because we went to a pub and the smell of fries was everywhere. I ended up with a steak salad. By 3pm I was starving and was starting to get one of those hungry headaches. I didn’t get all of the toppings on the salad like the candied pecans. It seems like they would have been riddled with sugar. 

At lunch, my friend and I decided to sign up for a 5k next February, so this will help with two of my intentions: connection and fitness. I am so excited! Thankfully, I packed plenty of food to help with my hungry so I ate again before going to the gym. I did one hour on the elliptical! This probably seems like a low amount but I have never done an hour. Even when I was at my fittest, I only did about 45 minutes. I am preparing myself for this 5k training. 

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On a typical Friday night, I usually order take-out (Chinese food) and watch trashy shows. I still wanted the take-out feel even if I couldn’t get my usually greasy food. I got take-out from True Food in Denver and I was blown away by the flavor. The kale salad had this awesome kick to it and the sea bass was perfectly seared! I also got this hangover juice drink but could only drink about ¼ of it. It was so sweet and I was full. I made it by halfway through A Christmas Prince: the Royal Baby before falling asleep. It was cheesy and good but I was so tired from this week. 

Today I am grateful for friends, having plenty of food, and access to the internet. There are so many cute animal videos to watch when you’re in a bad mood.  

90 Day Transformation – Day 3 – Making Up Stories

 

I am finally caught up on blogging! Day 3 was harder. Although it started off amazing, I woke up early did some writing and got to work early. I even went to the gym before work and on my lunch break. 

I realized why I was snacking so much on vending machine food before. I never brought enough food for the entire day; definitely not enough food to have enough energy to go to the gym. So I would purchase junk for quick energy. 

This week I started packing more and more food. I never eat all of it but it’s food I love enough so when I get hungry I have plenty of healthy options to choose from.

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It’s way easier to make healthier choices about food when you are intuit with how you will feel after. Recently, I was doing most of my emotional eating at work. This week has been enlightening to track what I am eating and how I feel after. 

Later in the day, I got some disappointing news at work and came home to my husband and started making up stories in my head about every little thing he said. Does anyone else every do that? Make up a story like my husband didn’t want to eat leftovers so I jumped to he doesn’t like my cooking. It sounds so ridiculous typing it out. 

I tend to leap far on assumptions when I am in a negative headspace. This is also the point where I would emotionally eat. 

Instead of binge eating, I decided to write out my “story” and feelings associated with, then pick which sections are just assumptions. That helped get off the story train and not binge eat!

I ended the day being grateful for my husband, access to healthy food, and snowy cold nights.

90 Day Transformation – Day 2 – Slowly Getting Better

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My headache was still very present in the morning. I snoozed for almost 30 minutes. I was finally able to drag myself out of bed. I knew I wouldn’t be able to do any intense workouts so I tried a yoga for migraines video and drank some green juice to see if it would help. 

By lunch, my headache was gone! Something amazing happened after lunch, I did not get the afternoon slump! I actually had energy for the rest of the day. I had so much energy I actually was able to finish my first two blog posts. I am hoping to get into a rhythm of posting every morning for the previous day. 

I went to the gym after work and did 30 minutes of cardio on the elliptical. I am struggling with starting to workout again. It’s very humbling being out of breath after only 2 minutes cardio. I know the next 90 days are going to be really hard but I believe I will be in significantly better place after. 

I have been using the MyFitnessPal app to track my food. It was really time consuming on Day 1. It is very informative. There is a breakdown of nutrients and I am finding it really helpful. I initially downloaded so if I have an IBS flare up, I can easily know what caused it. It is making much more conscious of what I am eating.  

9E08102F-1E07-4AE6-A327-6F4E5F6B6F4EMy fitness journal also arrived a day early, so I quickly added my goals and measurement. Since I am logging my food on the app. I decided to use the food sections on the journal for my thoughts about my meals or just in general. Tomorrow I will up my water intake.

Today I am grateful for the free gym at work, my kitchen and sheet masks for my face.

90 Day Self Transformation Project – Pre-intentions

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This is year has been a whirlwind. I lost my grandfather, met my husband, had several big changes at work and generally felt like I lost control of my life. Not all was bad, despite some hardships I definitely had an amazing year. I want to challenge myself, to be a stronger person and most importantly to prioritize my health. 

I have been reading so many “90 day transformation” stories and found them so inspiring. It took me hours to read through Blogilates 90 day transformation but it was so fun and EMPOWERING. If you can find the time, it’s a must read. 

I started setting these pre-intention on Monday, December 2 after work. I went to the store to get healthier food, ordered a 12 week journal on Amazon and got to setting my intentions. They maybe lofty but I wanted to aim higher and really challenge myself. I need to reprioritize my life.  This will be a block and tackle effort but I see these intentions as all interconnected .

  1. Creativity. I have been so stagnant at home. Usually I love creating new recipes, coloring, or journaling. Maybe it is the stress of work or the time change, but I just have no energy. I can barely throw a meal together. In the next 90 days, I want to 
  • Blog more 
  • Find a new hobby
  • Create new recipes 
  1. Wellness. This one is such a loaded item and will take a herculean effort.  Being healthy has been life lifelong struggle. I binge eat when stressed and have never been great about prioritizing fitness. 
  • Work out at least 5 times a week
  • Lose weight (I am not setting a goal because I tend to fixate on my weight)
  • Eat more veggies and eat no processed food
  • Monitor my food intake for IBS control
  • One self care activity a week
  • Practice gratitude everyday 
  1. Effort into my marriage. A co-worker recently told me that a marriage is what you put into it. And that really stuck with me. Our marriage is so new and I was single for most of my adult life. I want us to be set up for success and do my part. 
  • Weekly date nights
  • Take some education courses
  • Be present and listen
  1. Connection. In the past couple of years, some of my friends moved away and I drifted from others. I’d like to reconnect and would also like to connect to Colorado. I moved here nine years ago, bought a house, but never really feel like I have roots or give back. Most importantly, I want to connect on a higher spiritual basis. I attended a Unitarian service last year and I really loved it. 
  • Be an active member of a church
  • See friends more
  • Volunteer

Kind of a long list and these next 90 days will be fun and challenging and I am sure my intentions will evolve over time. Memorializing my intentions will definitely help keep me accountable.