90 Day Self Transformation Project – Week 5 (Days 32-35) – Weekly Check In

Instead of trying to post everyday, I am going to do a weekly check i so I can spend more time actually hitting my goals and getting some balance in my life.

I am over a month in and I am definitely changing! I’ve lost over 15lbs and have some balance in my diet. I started out very restrictive. I have a little less than 9lbs left to go before I can start high impact exercises and I am hoping to hit that before spring. However, in my weekly weigh in/measurements, I am still at the same weight for almost 3 weeks now. I think I have hit a plateau so I am going to reassess my workout routine and also purchase a scale for my food and see what happens. The good news is I lost about 5 inches since my last measurements in various places so something is working. 

This week my sleep and water intake have not been great. I get barely 6 hours of good sleep. I know it’s my depression which is very frustrating. I did find these great sleep meditations on youtube which helped the past two nights. I also need to figure out a way to get more water. I noticed this week I drink around 30 oz a day which is just not enough especially at a higher altitude. I got a dehydration headache almost everyday. 

This week, I did not get to a church service either. Sunday morning is always my grocery shopping time and I am struggling with adjusting to my new routine. 

I got so many new things to try at Trader Joe’s. I went to the store so hungry that I wanted everything in the store and went a little overboard.

Everything but the Bagel Chicken Meatballs

Ready!

I am obsessed with the everything but the bagel seasoning from Trader Joe’s. It is so good on everything. Salads, veggies, avocado toast, sandwiches, whatever. I wanted to try them in meatballs. I needed to food prep for the weekend so it seemed like the perfect opportunity.

These were so quick and easy to make. I wish they would have kept their shape a little better. Even my husband liked them.

Ingredients:

  • 12 oz ground chicken
  • 3 Tablespoons Everything But The Bagel Seasoning
  • 1/2 teaspoon salt
  • 1 teaspoon red pepper flakes
  • 1 egg
  • 1 teaspoon ground sage
  • 1 teaspoon ground parsley
  • 2 Tablespoons buckwheat flour

Directions:

  1. Preheat the oven to 425 degrees. In a large combine the ground chicken and egg.
  2. Add the spices.
  3. Fold in the buckwheat flour.
  4. Line a pan with parchment paper and then create some balls with the chicken mixture.
  5. Bake for about 20-25 minutes.
  6. Rest for 2 minutes then enjoy or pack for later!

90 Day Self Transformation Project – Day 31 – Setting Core Values

I finally got my 2020 planner in. I picked one that was goal oriented and it is a lot to fill out. There is a core values section, and I struggled with core values so much in the therapy last year too.

I like the idea of establishing core values. It takes a certain amount of self awareness to develop them. 

After much research, I set my core values as follows:

  • Balance 
  • Love
  • Security and Stability 
  • Achievement and determination
  • Family and Friendship
  • Justice 
  • Wisdom 
  • Spirituality 
  • Loyalty 
  • Personal Fulfilment 

Now I have to start setting goals which is hard when your depressed. It is hard to battle that inner voice saying you are failure why should you set goals. I am determined to complete the self awareness and goals section of the planner. I did spend $30 on this planner so I want to get my use out of it. 

I had to take a step back from my weight loss plan to focus on my mental health. I feel like I am getting back on track and will meal prep this weekend and plan my workout schedule. I need to get my sleep schedule back on track too. I have only been getting about 6 hours in the last couple of days.

Today I am grateful for my husband, my job and stability. 

90 Day Self Transformation Project – Days 29-30 – 2020

Happy New Year! My new year started with very little fanfare. Friends came over for dinner and a game night. 

I baked chicken wings instead of frying them and apparently, the secret is aluminum free baking powder. They were really good!

I had taken a break during the holidays from work and a little from my diet changes. I didn’t sway too much. No binge eating which is shocking! I am now back on the transformation train and I also have one big new year’s resolution. I am going to skip the week 4 check in and will give myself time to restart. 

I am going to do a low spend year, not a complete no spend though. I tend to compensate from one rush to another. So instead of eating food especially sugar to get a rush, I have been spending quite a bit. 

This year I will set the following rules:

  • No new clothes unless I need to replace a staple item. 
  • I can buy gifts for others within reason 
  • No limits on food 
  • No new types of makeup or skincare, only replacing
  • Definitely no new movies, books or magazines. I have so many books, some that I haven’t even read yet. 
  • No extra coffee or drinks unless out with friends or family
  • I can still do one self care activity a month and will still get my rewards if I hit my weight goals. 

I finally got my planner so will be working to get that started too and plan some more detailed goals. 

I am grateful for the new year and new opportunities.

90 Day Self Transformation Project – Days 26-28 – Dealing with Depression

Last night I had a realization that my depression was back. Usually I get very numb when depressed but this time my depression is mostly anger which has been very hard to manage. Everything puts me in a bad mood. Everything feels like a crisis. 

I am treating every relationship in my life like a burden. Thankfully, I have a very forgiving friends who understand depression. Even admitting to myself that my depression is back has changed my attitude some. At least I recognize where the anger and feelings are coming from and can accept it. 

I called several therapists this morning to try to get a new appointment and until then, I am practicing DBT with my old workbooks. 

Dialectical Behavior Therapy was helpful in the past and I spent over a year in intensive therapy learning new skills to deal with my mental illness. So I can definitely manage my depression again. I think I needed to finally accept that it is back and address it head on. 

I want to stay on track on my transformation goals and my goals will help manage my depression.

My biggest hurdle will be managing my relationship with my husband while being depressed. I have never had a major depression episode since we got married and were living together. I don’t want to ruin our relationship or impact his mental health too much either. 

I am grateful for acceptance.

Simple All Purpose Cleaner

In an effort to use less chemicals, I have been trying to homemade all purpose cleaner. I wanted something fairly simple. 

This is my very simple all purpose cleaner and it works pretty well on most surfaces. I like to let it sit for at least 30 minutes before using so the rosemary can really infuse with the liquids. It’s also really pretty to just leave out on the counter or table. 

 

 

 

Ingredients:

1 Clear spray bottle

White Vinegar

Water

30 drops Essential Oils 

1 Rosemary Spring

Directions:

  1. Add the rosemary spring to the spray bottle. 
  2. Add equal parts vinegar and water 
  3. Add drops of essential oil. I went with lavender for this bottle. 
  4. Let sit for 30 minutes then use as needed. 

90 Day Self Transformation Project – Days 24-25 – Week 3 Check In

8e342882-b371-434f-b688-6cde35f8bc81The holidays really through me off schedule and my weekly check in is a little late. My husband and I have been apartment hunting and we had some parties so I have not been able to cook as usual which means it is hard to track my food intake and calories or workout on my usual schedule. 

I tried my best to eat in moderation and the good news, I am finally below the 190s. I am officially down to 189; lost over 16lbs! My doctor said I needed to get to 180 so I can do any type of exercise and relieve pressure on my joints so only 9lbs left to go. I haven’t been below 190 since August so this is a great success. 

While apartment hunting, I tried two new meals – poke bowls and ramen. I have only ever had the cheap ramen. I got the ramen with vegan kale noodles and I am definitely going to try these at home.  

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I know it’s not a huge amount of weight; however, I already feel better carrying around less weight. It is getting easier to walk up steps and walk inclines. 

I know I set sneakers and a manicure as rewards. However, I decided to go with a 2020 planner instead. It’s getting closer to 2020 and I want to start the year off with a plan. 

I am grateful for progress.