90 Day Self Transformation Project – Days 16-18 – Busy Days

0bb2375a-d942-4ca6-81c9-15140e5e97c6I spent the last 3 days at work stuck in conference rooms and never even leaving for a lunch break. I was able to workout in the mornings but it couldn’t make it to the gym in the afternoon. At least one of the conferences rooms had an amazing view. I keep reminding myself that it is only a few more days then I finally get a break. Boy, I am ready for that break. 

Barre classes are seriously my favorite thing right now. Still sore in the most random places. I look forward to the classes and I am surprisingly okay waking up 30 minutes earlier to do the workouts.

Thankfully, I was able to get healthy food during all of these busy meetings and didn’t eat any of the many sugary treats. I did have some pieces of dark chocolate in one meeting. 

I spent most of this week thinking about my family. This is the first Christmas without our grandfather and it will be a hard one. 

I am grateful for my family, the last moments I spent with my grandfather, and the holiday season.

90 Day Self Transformation Project – Day 15 – Two Weeks In

4c0172c9-52bd-48c1-837b-3abca4247340Officially two weeks in! This weigh in was a little less dramatic. I lost an additional 3lbs this week, that’s 13lbs total in two weeks. I also lost over 6 inches. I owe myself a new pair of sneakers!

It’s been 15 days since I last binge ate, the longest stretch in almost 5 months.  I am thoroughly enjoying barre classes. They are way more challenging AND FUN than I expected. Making time for working out has been a struggle but I think it’s important to prioritize my health. 

Logging my food is becoming a habit and feels less tedious. I also didn’t have an IBS flare up this week which feels amazing. 

For my other intentions, I made time for my friends and had a date night with my husband. I also got at least 7 hours of sleep every night. This upcoming week, I want to focus on mindfulness especially when eating and decluttering some of my space. 

I am grateful for progress, my body and raspberries.

90 Day Self Transformation Project – Day 14 – Medical Opinion on Transformation


Esh, so this is going to be a long one. I have tried to write this post so many times in the last week. 

I mentioned that I wanted a medical opinion before deciding on a weight loss plan. Keto is everywhere, but seems so intense and restrictive. I read Dr. Phil’s 20/20 Plan and it seemed practical and can help with my binge eating. I have also been reading Liezl Jayne’s blog and her plan seems really easy to follow long term and is a true lifestyle change. 

I will start with the good news. As of now, I do not have diabetes, pre diabetes, high blood pressure or high cholesterol. I do have some vitamin deficiencies. 

The slightly bad news. Due to my weight, I should not do any high impact exercises like kettlebell workouts or strength training on my own until I lose some weight. Two weeks ago, I hit my heaviest (I’m cringing even writing this) at 205 on my just over 5” frame. This extra weight can really hurt my joints especially for at home exercises. So my first goal is to get to 180 but in total, it was recommended that I lose 45lbs with no set time. My transformation will likely be significantly longer than 90 days. That was so hard to hear and I had to take some time to process. 

I really didn’t want to focus on my actual weight as a goal. My doctor said to see it as just metric to help determine my overall health, and we can adjust the weight goal if I am losing more inches than weight. I was also told that I am currently really strong mentally and I can handle losing a designated weight without developing any disordered eating. I just need to be aware of potentially problematic behaviors and be honest with my doctor and therapist if any habits develop. 

I will be eating no less than 1500 calories and no more than 1800 calories factoring in any exercise. I was also reminded that if I am truly hungry and it is not emotional to eat even if it is over the allotted calories.  It’s been a week and I have not been obsessing over calorie counting. I still eat my food and enjoy it.  

I am going to continue to keep my food plan simple, whole foods, limited processed food and only eliminate the foods that impact my IBS. I will continue to use MyFitnessPal to track but will factor in calories. Per Liezl Jayne’s plan, she recommends assigning some rewards and I have thought long and hard about them. I tried to pick some really fun stuff. They get more extravagant as I get closer to my goal. I just need a new car so I figure this will be a good motivator. I am already down 10lbs so I get my first 3 rewards (YAY!). 

5lbs – Treat meal

8lbs – New skincare stuff

10lbs – New sweaters

12lbs – New sneakers

15lbs – Manicure

18lbs – 2020 Planner

20lbs – Gymshark outfit

22lbs – High tea at the Brown Palace

25lbs – Fitness tracker

27lbs – Knitting class 

30lbs – Day off work and spa treatment

35lbs – New fancy outfit

38lbs – Hire a maid 

40lbs – Long weekend with husband

42lbs – Murder Mystery Dinner Party

45lbs – New Car

My doctor recommended Barre classes (at home or in person) as a great low impact workout. I got a free trial membership for Barre 3 and seriously, it’s a low impact workout, but hard! I completed around 4 30 minute workouts this week, and they are challenging. I don’t think I ever been so sore in so many weird places. 

Today I am grateful for caffeine, sleep and change. 

90 Day Self Transformation Project – Day 13 – Preparation

e3c11768-464f-49e1-9739-ba55adf12ccfToday was all about preparation for the week and relaxing. I binged an entire show on Hulu while planning out Christmas gifts. It felt so incredible to have a slow day where I could just do nothing. My brain felt like mush after this week and I needed a day to unwind. 

In all of my meal plans that I researched, almost everyone suggested this sheet pan recipe. I went with some carrots, mushrooms, peppers and chicken and used a super grain base (quinoa and millet).


This is going to be a very busy week so I want to be as prepared as possible. I also wrote out all of my food for the week so I know exactly what I will generally be eating all week. 

My husband is not a huge healthy food person. Last Sunday was the first time in our entire relationship where he didn’t like my food. I even turned him into a dessert person with my strawberry cake. I tried to make a healthy version of Indo Chinese fried rice. I substituted brown rice. He ate one bite. I had to redeem myself. 

I made him my family’s jambalaya and he loved it! My pride is healed 🙂

I am grateful for Christmas, slow days and streaming services.





90 Day Self Transformation Project – Day 12 – Thoughtful Saturday

eb0aa81b-4540-4cf2-b905-10a7a852f7d6I spent a lot of time on Saturday thinking about my intentions when I first started a little less than two weeks ago, especially connection. On Friday, although I had a good time with my friend, it was a hard dinner. My friend is going through a difficult time and I am not sure how to help. 

I found it terribly hard trying to figure out the right thing to say and to not seem like I am too happy. I just want to help my friend or even fix her situation. But I can’t do that, I have to let her vent and not try to fix her situation, only she can do that. It is incredibly hard to do though especially for a meddler like me. Reconnecting means I have to be a friend and listen and not jump into solution mode. 

On a lighter note, I did rediscover oatmeal and made a delicious oatmeal bowl. I forgot how filling oatmeal is. I didn’t feel like eating again until 5 hours laters, very unlike me. Definitely, going to make more of these bowls. 

My husband and I finally got our date night. We went to dinner then to the Moscow Nutcracker Ballet. It was beautiful! And my husband actually enjoyed. I was in the Nutcracker as a child so it super nostalgic for me. I only have one more week of work until my staycation and I have so many dates planned for us. I also finally get a break from work. 

Today I am grateful for ballet, warm clothes and matcha tea. 


90 Day Transformation – Day 11 – A Highly Caffeinated Friday

351615a5-bfbb-47fa-ad88-c45c7c82ec61After a long week of work, I my boss told me to come in two hours late. However, around 8am we realized I had to be at this all day meeting. So I was stuck in a meeting from 9 until 5:30, not a super exciting day.

The meeting finally ended and I got to spend some time with a friend. My husband is just refusing to go to True Food Kitchen, even though I love it! My friend graciously agreed to go, and I had the best turkey burger ever. It was juicy and flavorful and I need a recipe. 

I made the mistake of getting a cappuccino but they had oat milk! I am obsessed with oat milk. I know it took me a while to get on the oat milk train but I am hooked. I was up until 1am watching Hulu. 

It is getting easier to make healthier eating choices. I didn’t crave sugar today which was really surprising. 

Today I am grateful for friends, my bed and comfy pjs.


90 Day Transformation – Day 9 & 10 – Catching Up

cf2cb1ba-a0d6-4324-b5df-eab1c98b19e7The week is almost over and oh boy, did it kick my butt! I worked almost 12 hours everyday this week. And I woke up this morning drained. My work life balance is so off this week. Despite how early I woke up (usually around 5am), I didn’t have time to write in addition to working out and packing my food. I need a more structured morning routine. 

I found myself scrolling through my hiking photos just wishing for some peace and needing a break.

This week was a huge test in discipline. Thankfully, I did not eat processed food. Eating clean has been a challenge especially at the office during the holiday season. I am honestly feeling so much better eating this way though. My sugar and junk food withdrawals seem to be gone. And despite being exhausted this week from work, I had energy and felt significantly more focused. 

It’s only been 10 days, but I even had a small fitness victory. My co-workers and I took a walk yesterday and usually when I talk I am gasping for breath trying to keep yesterday. Yesterday, I rambled on for a full 10 minutes without being winded. 

In the last two days, I am eternally grateful for a patient husband, laughter and clean food. 

This weekend I am going to do some serious self care, learn how to make buddha bowls and work on our holiday cards (better late than never)!

90 Day Transformation – Day 8 – One Week In

a11eef86-30f7-483d-91d1-7650e483b50dI am one week into this transformation! I set a lot of intentions and to start, I tried to focus on my health. Some days were definitely easier than others. This morning I weighed myself and was so surprised to see I lost 10lbs! I am sure it is mostly water weight but I am happy for some results, and I also lost a few inches.  I also blogged more than ever this week and finally got on a set schedule. 

I made some huge changes to my diet over the last week. Giving up processed food and candy was so hard. I have dealt with junk food withdrawals. I had some serious cravings especially when stressed at work. I also realized I do most of my emotional eating at work very mindlessly, experience sugar crashes then get more sugar. It is a vicious cycle to break.  

Looking back at the last week, I can honestly say that I enjoyed the changes in my diet. The food was still really delicious and for the most I wasn’t hungry throughout the day. I also never experienced any major sugar crashes. One major change especially since day 5, I don’t snooze as much in the morning. Usually, I snooze for about 30-45 minutes. It drives my husband crazy! Now it’s maybe 15 minutes at most.  

In the next week, while maintaining the new changes to my diet, I want to make sure I am drinking enough water and getting at least 7-8 hours of sleep. Adjusting to the new workout schedule and adding so much food prep took some time from sleep schedule. 

Today I am grateful for change, my life in general and all cats.

90 Day Transformation – Day 7 – Hungry

f68848a6-ce24-4d6e-9321-16c867df799aI struggled today. Work was so hectic. I realized how quickly it was to slip into old habits. I felt like a failure so many times yesterday. 

I woke up at 4am thinking about work and couldn’t fall back asleep. Then I spent all day staring at a computer and jumping from call to call. This felt like Day 1 again. I wanted candy most of the day. I was hungry all day and I wanted to emotionally eat my stress away. It is a tried and true habit for me.

This is how I got here, carrying unnecessary extra weight and being out of shape. I prioritized a stressful job over my health and developed unhealthy coping habits. I didn’t snack on anything unhealthy and I have no idea where that will power came. Other than constantly reminding myself that if I ate junk, I would crash and wouldn’t be able to work as late as I needed to. 

I made a commitment to reprioritizing my life so last night I took a break and went to the gym before working again. I have to develop the discipline to have some work life balance. 

Today I am grateful for this 90 day challenge and the changes it is bringing to my life. 

90 Day Transformation – Day 6 – A Set Back


0071129f-59c5-4ca4-b153-aae22b9abfe3Yesterday started with a set back. Something I ate caused an IBS flare up. I looked through my food and narrowed it down to two things: chipotle dressing from Friday’s salad or the shishito peppers from Saturday. 

So my morning (and day) plans were halted. I had to relax today which was not something I planned or wanted to do. I wanted to start this 90 day transformation at full steam and it felt like a set back. However, after some reflection, I realized to get through this 90 days, I have to be flexible and some days will be more productive than others and that’s okay.

I did get to do a slower walk around the beautiful Sloans Lake which brightened my day. Sloans Lake is my favorite park in Denver, it is less crowded, has beautiful views of the city and the mountains, and still has plenty of puppies for me to see. 

I spent most of the day watching Youtube and researching meal plans. I got an information overload, there are so many different types of meal plans. I scheduled an appointment with my primary care doc because I have no idea what is best for my body and want to make the most informed choice.  

Today I am grateful for beautiful views, slow days, and holiday music.